A Weigh In

I don’t weigh all of the time because it can kill a desire to do good. I did weigh in recently though and wanted to share. I started this journey, or restarted, at 311 pounds. Scary, but true. I don’t look like I weigh that much nor do I look like it. Bottom line, I had some muscle, but I still weigh entirely too much. I weighed in at 305 the other day. I haven’t even had time to get my exercise up and running and yet I have managed that. I know it seems so small, but it is such a big deal to me. I have started drinking more water, less diet soda. I’m trying. It is starting something, even if it is small. I remind myself often, it is for my health, not my weight. I don’t feel active and healthy and vibrant right now. I want to though. When I did last though, I wasn’t tiny. I was a size 16. That is the goal I think.

The Little Joys

I️ got to work on my tack room a lot this weekend. It is a little joy, but it has made me so excited. I️ Will post pictures soon (I️ know I️ say that a lot, but I️ will do it). It isn’t much, just a couple of saddle racks, some trash cans for feed, and some pallets for hay. We are getting a metal garage for hay storage soon, as our 10×10 shed will not hold enough hay for the winter. Eventually we will get a real barn with stalls and and a tack and feed room all in one place. Once we do that the shed will be used for lawn care stuff, gardening stuff, things for chicken and ducks (hopefully we will get this right eventually), or car stuff. Part of me is afraid that once we have a better option we’ll waste the space but I️ hope not and we will try not. Michael also put up a light. It still needs to be painted though. I️ think we’re going with the classic red barn.

Also, we are brainstorming how to create a space for outdoor cats, like barn cats, to keep safe from coyotes. We definitely need barn cats, but I️ don’t want lambs for slaughter either. Thoughts?

Purina Problem

I cannot believe it has been 10 days since my last post. I guess this is the time of year where everything speeds up, at least for me. I know that isn’t the case for everyone though, so if it is a hard time of year for you, I’ve got a listening ear.


Anyway, this post is to give a heads up about some feed issues I have encountered. I have tried to contact Purina directly, but couldn’t wait on hold long enough. So, I have ducks, (duh, many of you know this), but we recently got another bag of Purina Flock Raiser. It looks like this:


Image result for purina flock raiser

We bought it from a new supplier, but the bag was perfectly sealed, so I don’t think it is related. Anyway, we found bugs all in the bag. This is a little odd of a situation because ducks do eat bugs, but ultimately we decided not to feed it as we had no idea what the bugs were. Anyway, PSA, be careful folks!


So I have a love hate relationship with Halloween. As a teen there were many Halloween I spent alone, or with family but still had fun. This year was our first in our house. We live on a road big enough we didn’t expect trick or treaters.

We decided to light a fire and roast marshmallows and have s’mores. Also this month I watched all of the Halloweentown movies. I didn’t watch all of my Halloween favorites, but some I love but missed are hocus pocus, the nightmare before Christmas, and Charlie Brown and the great pumpkin. I know, nerd flag flying, but they are the best

Also the marshmallows Michael bought are shaped like ghosts!

New Found Family

Sarah has been a close friend for many years. It’s always difficult to ask for help. She needed help but frankly, so did we! We needed help desperately with the farm work. She needed a stable home, but I won’t go into that, it’s not my story to tell. We are thrilled for her to be with us, but I wanted to share with you guys

Another Week

I posted about my weight for the first time approximately a week ago. I have not weighed myself yet, and don’t think I will for each blog post, because the number of the scale can be disheartening. Instead I want to talk about somethings that have been good and bad. So, something that has been great is that Libby’s has these veggies that come in little cups like you might think of for fruit for lunch. That has been awesome. A big expensive grocery trip was helpful this week. Also, having a cleaner kitchen and actual food to cook.

What hasn’t helped is a habit I have developed since I was a teenager. I did not used to do this, but I have started eating when I am emotional. It doesn’t actually help anything, it is like a compulsion. Yes, I clearly still need a therapist, but I think I have a lead on that- look for more later. Also, the dreaded hour of 4 when I get home from school (aka work) and am STARVING. That time is tough, but having some decent snacks on hand has helped somewhat.

Also I went for a ride this week. That is more activity than I have had in awhile. Issues with my partner (this is Cayla, if you didn’t know. Michael may make a rare appearance, but unlikely) make it difficult as well. I know in many of these blogs people talk about that. I wish I could. I think it would be helpful for me, and I’d likely get great advice. Unfortunately between my job and me being a naturally private person it is difficult to get me to open up.

I feel as though I am rambling, but one post like that every so often isn’t so bad right? Particularly because that is how I feel. It feels like I am ping ponging around in my own brain and constantly changing thoughts and courses. A friend has come to live with us, and I don’t know how long, but I hope it is long term. She is great help on the farm, and someone I simply like having around. If it seems like she’ll be around a long time, I think I will have her post some too, and add her to the about us page. I sometimes worry that I am not developing the page in the right way. Like, it should be more professional. The problem is that right now we aren’t professional, as in a company with a product and set procedures. We are just us for now.

Shine Apple Crisp

So one of my hobbies is cooking. I’ve said that but I bet many didn’t believe it considering I’ve posted so very little in my hobbies blog. Hey, when you’re super busy hobbies don’t happen much. I finally to play with a recipe. I made this recipe my own, but I always like to own my starter or inspiration. This started from fake ginger.com


For the apples:

1 cup brown sugar

1/2 cup granulated sugar

5 large apples, peeled and cut into chunks

1/4 teaspoon salt

1 teaspoon cinnamon

2 teaspoons of Fireball Cinnamon Whiskey

2 teaspoons of Sugarlands Apple Pie Moonshine

For the topping:

1 cup oats

1 and 1/3 cup loosely packed brown sugar

3/4 cup flour

1 teaspoon cinnamon

5-6 tablespoons softened butter

2 teaspoon vanilla extract

2 teaspoons of Fireball Cinnamon Whiskey

2 teaspoons of Sugarlands Apple Pie Moonshine

Layer the apples mix and then the topping. Mix those in a separate bowl first though. I did 4 hrs on low, but 2 hrs on high is fine.

I use Jonathan apples when I’m baking. Also, funny story how this recipe came to be. I knew that I had cinnamon in my house. I just couldn’t find that cinnamon. So as I was looking around my kitchen for an alternative I came across the liquor cabinet containing the moonshine and whiskey. It creates this amazing caramel sauce.

Some great recipes definitely come from accidents!